Climbing

The higher you get the harder the fall.

I went to Portsmouth today and took this photograph from the top of the Spinnaker Tower during my 5 hours with friend Alex. It's interesting how different people can give you a totally different perspective on the world just by talking with you. I've felt rather up and down over the last week. I'm in a tricky situation at the moment. I find myself caring about many people in my life and not really able to recognise what I need in my life in order to feel content.

Contentment is something that doesn't come easily to me. What can I change in my life to stop me wanting something different?. I think I'm suffering from 30 years of trying to keep other people happy on one level yet realising that I'm in this situation through the choices I have made. When you've climbed to the top and look back down to where you've come from, it scares you to your core to realise how far you will have to fall to start all over again.

I'm not ready to make changes. I don't even know if I can.