During the last year, some days have passed me by without incident and others have smacked me full in the face. Today, I felt I had a pretty good day.
However, in the way that always happens, I've been waiting for a text from someone all evening to know that they are safe and well. In my book, there is nothing more upsetting than planning to receive a bit of information and then be powerless to receive it - and that is what is currently happening. For some unknown reason, just at the moment I needed my phone to work - it's died. Completely void of use for the one thing it's for. It's on, and every feature is working it just won't connect.
So I'm without signal. Literally. I don't know how that person is or how they are feeling. Worst of all, I can't send my support and wishes. It's all very strange. I guess that sometimes it's good to be silent. Alone without connection to anyone else. It makes you wonder if we're now all too reliant on connection and whether being permanently connected means that actually you're never truly connected at all.
What does it mean to lose signal with other people. How do you know when you've dropped your connection and can't dial into them anymore. Texting, blogging, instant messaging, phoning, emailing, facebooking.....I'm more connected than I've ever been to my friends and family, yet more of them feel lonely, troubled, misunderstood, misrepresented than every before.
Long ago, the only way I knew had to communicate was through songs. Makes me wonder if I should go back to that and quit communicating without saying anything at all.........
2007-11-28 @ 09:55